Try to Fix Me

Put some poison in the teacup. Sew my lips shut and contain me in shoeboxes. Show me the time capsules and watch the regrets flow in sweat. Detox me in the sauna of stability and reality from all these intoxicating things I've done. Help me forget the hole in the wall. Help me forget how to breathe. 

I'm trapped in time, always counting down the days. Help me forget how to count. Trap me here, right here, in this sixty seconds. Teach me how to sit still. I never did learn. 

I spend my words like Monopoly money. I don't even care if you're listening, honey. 

Self-Medicating

I ushered in a new love and brought it to my kitchen table. I reasoned with it and nurtured it, and threw the old love out, with pictures set on fire and love letters torn apart. I picked up all the pieces and felt the salve of something solid. I breathed in ash and smoke of burned bridges and did cartwheels through the soccer field. I micro-derma-fucking-brased my soul. I tried it all, sleep and sad poems, TV and toast, pills and post-war memorials, but Lord, I never got the pain to go away.